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Lalalala, lalalalaa..i'm in pieces~ can you fix me? haha If only life was like abc ! U CAN GIVE ME <3, HUGS and sometimes :D
IMPT: <3@6/1/12
XINYU's BDAE 7 JUNE
ARINA'S BDAE 16 AUG
AISHAHS'S BDAE 29 DEC




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Ok, xinyu wants my post :D lol.
WE GOT A NEW ENGLISH TEACHERRRRR and very qiao, his name is kenneth lee which is the same as my ex sch/classmate at h.i.p.s ahhas..exactly the same name. And he dun like ppl calling him kenny and CHER cos he says that CHER is bird? but he thinks until damn 歪 so he dislikes it and for kenny i dno why he dislikes it and i wasnt interested anw -.- i thot he was good but after 3 days of his lessons i felt that he's kinda slack which is somehow good and bad? hahas..maybe mdm woo is more of those kinda very experienced teacher compared to mr lee.
Erm, mdm tang was sick for this whole week, and a new teacher came in..she's from taiwan and i kinda lyk her ( it's true that i lyk someone easily and maybe dislike someone too ) for being very detailed as she talked abt things lyk the author? And she talked more abt the author den abt the passage -.-..
Okay, den i met that baaassstta ytd, at the lrt exactly the same way how i met Hj coincidentally. I like the way when i met Hj but not wif him, kns the sight of him makes me feel lyk puking can..unfortunately i think he didnt recognise me as i was wearing my contacts. I do <3 my contacts..but still very 不习惯cos the degree of my contacts and spec were diff..ok wad else
Todae i had p.e. same as my bro, diff class, diff teacher but same timing. I<3 his classmates! damn shuai..lol and i 暗恋 one of them..hha!!~~
We learned how to play volleyball too, but unfortunately i got hitted by the ball, directly on my left cheek -.- but it wasnt that serious laa..the ball was thrown by amy..but i dun blame her, cos i felt that maybe she wasnt happy to be the one throwing the ball ahahs..i swapped wif her cos my rubber band was falling off..anw it was my fault lo..for being so stiff having my hands in the rdy position even thou the ball was gonna land on my cheek and not my hands -.- i blame myself for not being those sporty type and has a VERY slow reaction.
After that Xy and i went cp to hav our lunch..we shared this kuey chap hahas, it was nice minus the part when we found hair on pig skin and the fact that some ppl clean pig's intestine wif detergent..so we left the plate filled wif pig skin and intestine. GROSS~~..DEN MOST IMPORTANTLY I'M GONNA PROMOTE THIS DRINK CALL CHOCOLATE OREO OR OREO CHOCOLATE AT CP BASEMENT 1 SOLD AT A SHOP NAME COOL STATION DIRECTLY IN FRONT OF BURGER KING AND NEXT TO THE SHOPS THAT SELL DESERTS AND HOTDOGS. IT WAS FKIN NICE!~ I SWEAR!! U wont get tired of it lyk how mg and i felt lyk puking after drinking half of the coffee latte sold at the cupwalker outside of cp..yea i would sae it's nice but coffee is..eeewwwww..too much isnt good i guess :D.
Den after all the eating and drinking, we went to library to start homework-ing! And beside us were ppl from other sch..they were toking abt birds -.- SMALL birds ok i will not elaborate on that..it's up to ur imagination from here lolol. back to top?

SOOOOO ZHUN! SOOOOO LUCKY! he not coming..again.. -.-
Cos of some other reason, not becos of him le.
Anw he sae wad 9 plus meet but he woke up at 10plus?? wtf den i scared i would oversleep so i set alarm and woke up at 8 -.- and now im veryyyy tired zzz..cos i normally wake up at 10 too :( i nid my sleeeppppp~~
Haiz im soooo relieved now but somehow i alr got this feeling that he isnt coming..why the hell i got so worried ytd -.-
but nvm la 雨过天晴了 I JUS WANNA GO ESCAPE :( back to top?

OMG HE'S COMING OVER TML~~
wtf lo..at first he fang wo fei ji nvr come i was angry, and now that he's coming over im getting a lil scared..things might get a bit guai laa lol and im very worried!! I hope i dun give in this time but if he's coming hor, there must be something that he wants ba, and he cfm wants it before he leaves and nvr come bak again LOL wad am i toking abt..anw AIYA DO U GET ME ? I DNO IF I SOUND AS IF IM IN DANGER BUT AFTER TML I CERTAINLY HOPE I WILL SOMEHOW ZHANG DA AND STOP DREAMING LE COS HE MIGHT NOOOTTT BBEEEEEEE BAAAAKKKKKKKK ANNNYYYMMOOOOREEEEEEE. back to top?

AHHHH~~~!! THE WHITE HAIR GUY DAMN SHUAIIII
But the story damn sad :(
Anw, tml goin bak sch to finish all the hw wif mg :l sadd xy cannot come
proj again hhas :P.
Dno if i should ask oopz out again after the hw-ing, cos he said that he's free den i oso dun feel lyk goin home..and when sch reopen its gonna be busyyyyy~ den jiu canot go out that often so must 趁现在 holidae faster meet up wif old frens :D.
BUT HOR MY FREAKING EYE SWOLLEN AGAIN! WHY WHY WHY, WHEN IT'S THE LAST WEEK OF HOLIDAE!! IF SCH REOPEN STILL SWOLLEN JIU JIALAT LIAO DEN I OSO CANNOT WEAR MY CONTACT LENS SCARED WILL 感染到.. but i dno if it's ok to soak it inside for 2 days,
so tml must wear le arbo bad for contact lens ba -.- aiyaaa so 烦.
Anw do u guys think that it's easy to make someone fall in love wif u? Cos to me, it used to be easy, used to be something u wan and u will definitely get it, but for now! It isnt anymore..how hard i try oso wont make someone u lyk to lyk u bak, i guess wad comes arnd rli goes arnd, maybe after few more yrs it will be easy again? Or maybe not? I dno cos i'm not god LOL, but i wanna be god! ONE DAY I WILL!~ *keep dreaming*
But when everything is under ur control it wouldnt be that fun? hahas, but life isnt lyk a game its not the more u play the btr u get, i think the more i live on i dont get anywhere either, i'm always bak to sq one! I was given a chance or maybe many many chances but i didnt cherish them and always making the wrong moves so face it le lo, maybe i should rli cherish the next chance i hav -.-
Irving aka pain told me before, the more THINGS u do, the more experience u get and u get to lvl up! It's so silly..but thinking that way is kinda 乐观 la..anw humans are animals so its common. LOL. And i think that common doesnt mean u hav to do it ma, arbo jiu not unique le >< plus it's kinda lyk 对不起 ur parents de 事, so if one day my parents find out i oso dno wad i will do, maybe end up on the newspaper headline for committing suicide ba hahas back to top?

GOT ERROR SIA! I CANNOT EDIT! so nvm i post again lo.
Anw todae i went to sch to hand in some files, and xy, mg were in sch doing their projs so i jus went there and 凑凑热闹, but i was lyk odd one out cos all the e2s :(Den after the projs we went to compass to hav our lunch at KFC, and we drank de pepsi were very very diluted, after that mg went home, xy went bak to continue her proj :l and for me, i went to meet hj lo..Xy very poor thing la! Her group members lyk keep quarrelling sia. But i shouldnt be sayin anything becos its none of my business! wink~ :DHaix when i was telling mg and xy abt HIM mg kept scolding me :( and i guess 我被她骂醒了吧. IF HE WANNA PLAY HIDE AND SEEK 我奉陪到底! muahahahha!
And Hj says that stead wont last, at most oso 2,3 yrs den he sae if u hong(?) dno how to spell that -.- u can hav many girls at one row den i questioned him, u wan so many girls for? den we both ended up laughing lol, that was a very stupid and obvious qn -.- anw, i kno stead wont last la..and nothing will last ba? so since nothing will last den jus stead lo lol dno if this makes sense ma..
Den he said that he wont go for stead le lo, lol..den i jus orhh.. no comments -.- back to top?

HAPPY? thou he didnt come..im still happy cos there was another guy that came and pei me :D and he's oopz aka hj lo.
Anw we jus tok abt those recent things that happened lo..and he seems to be a lil irritated cos i ask him out for such small matter >< ps ah didnt mean it..for feeling down over small matter -.- and he wanted me to tok more but i didnt LOL after all we both talked equally much ma :D *beep beep*
Hahas..i think i should jus get over it la, i dno why im willing to be wif him when he wants and can take it when he doesnt wan to..wad for sia, there are many other guys out there i guess -.- and maybe..MAYBE i should go for him hahas >< back to top?

心血来潮 therefore i posting again~..
Todae is the actual father's day? hahas..anw i wanna tell my dad that
I LOVE HIM <3! but i didnt tell that to him face to face thou, i guess i'm not brave enuff :l
Anw..i enjoyed watching my dad behind his bak as in looking at his bak/shadow and everything of his i jus simply can sae that i <3 him!
If oni me and him were at same age laa..he is those very responsible type of guy lo..those that definitely wont cheat u and will hold full responsibility and swear to take good care of u..
Lolol and nowadays this type of guys probably have already extinct..
Well, i'm going somewhere dangerous tml..so, wish me good luck! :] back to top?

EEEE ltr got many many good shows! lyk 唯我独尊? and Charlie and the chocolate factory! But i think..todae is father's day? Therefore, we are celebrating it wif my dad..well my mother thought of buying boxers lolol..so we all shared the cost lo :]
Haiz i was very happy on friday, becos someone that i used to lyk a lot a lot came bak to me..and jus one night of talking, all my old feelings for him came bak? And i was all set to give everything i hav to him (erm pls do not think dirty ><) My feelings seems to be always on standby mode, waiting for that fridae to come...and well it came :] but hor..he doent seems to be very sure of his feeling thou..but im ok wif it! I can wait..lyk wad i had been doing for the past few months..and i suppose i can wait for lyk another 1 yr? I dno why i'm always waiting for him..anw why can't he jus be a lil serious and stop answering me wif a "don't know", lyk or dun lyk very hard to ans meh? >.> He used to be very straight and jus rejected me even when i cried and asked him to stay..and now that he came bak..i thought he was willing to give it a try..but on sat, he asked if i think that it's possible between me and him well..i've always thot that its possible if not why was i waiting? And i rli thot he had felt the same but he didnt. He was jus hesitating all along..den i told him that i will decide for him and i told him to tell me a no..and he jus followed and he mentioned that he doesnt wan anyone to get hurt, but he's hurting me wif that bloody no! Den i told him why not a yes? den he was sayin that me and him wont last even if it was a yes, he sae he do hav a lil feeling for me and i think that a lil is enuff to become a lot de lo cos i've always believed that 感情是可以培养的..it's jus that whether u wan or not lo..and i guess he doesnt wan ba? Cos he jus kept thinking negatively..? Why wont last leh? he doesnt even give a proper reason but jus repeatedly tell me that we wont last de..Is age gap rli a very big prob? 4 yrs rli do make a different? Or is it that im a spare tyre? lolol.. even if spare tyre oso can last for few days/weeks ma..he jus kept saying no! den why the hell he came bak? if he rli wan to toy me den 敢敢 toy ma..why care abt my fking feelings..and jus kept hesitating there..maybe he's nice? Well, whether he's acting to be nice or not..the way he do things hor..makes me hav the thinking that ALL guys are nice and thats why i gave in too much to them.. back to top?

CRAPPP
June holiday passes so fast lo :(
1 and a half more week and it's gone!
I didnt even get to enjoy anything
and there are still many many homeworks waiting for me!
And not just that, i havent even start revising a single thingy! ZZZ
I played too much.. :(
Anw AURA IS BAK! YAY! Lol..and btw ytd outing was "fun" if u cancel the last part of the outing when my primary schmate and i went to meet rain and pain (rp).
Rp made us wait for lyk 1hr+ damn pekchek lo..sae 1.30pm come and they're still at home..anw at least they came in the end..heng 没有放飞机, arbo i will get more qi lo zzz
And hor they sae until they damn good-looking laa one of them sae that he got 18 ex so far and he's 18 yr old now -.- and the other got a stead that's ex-dnowadgang, and so i asked the lings to come lo..but heng they didnt manage to contact me as i'd off my phone while watching the Kung Fu Panda. OKAY LA I'M GONNA SAE IT'S VERY NICE.. ACTUALLY I THINK IT ISN'T THAT NICE BUT EVERYONE SAE I ACT COOL -.-
Den they called me again at night, i told them wad happened and everything lo den they sounded pretty relieved?
Lol cos if they were "ugly" SHE will sae that i waste HER makeup fee and time to meet RP. Good for them lo -.-
AND AND AND YTD DAMN 巧.
Cos i met two of my primary sch classmate:
Jing xi and Elis.
But oni jinx saw me LOL haha ps made fun of ur name ><
Anw DAMN QIAO AND FUN! o.o
OK EDIT EDIT!
we that dae went out is to celebrate xinyu's bdae!
Very belated one thou but den 诚意最重要!
Dno if xin yu lyk the presents we gave her lo..she didnt sae anything abt it! so xin yu wad do u think abt the presents? anw ps ah wanted to make the bear de but i scared ltr i anyhow make den spoil it :l
So jiu let u do it yourself lo hahas it says DIY ma ! :D back to top?

found another meaningful sentence,
某些人或事，一旦失去了，就不用去寻回。
替身，在很多时候都只能让失去的痛楚暂时被麻痹；
替身，始终不能取代原有的。
lol, jus felt lyk promoting this thingy~~ lalala :]
Waa..todae damn pissed lo.
Every round of dota oso felt very kinda angry.
Diao lo at first happy happy de cos i random tio sp
but den suddenly got 3 heros come gang me den shadow (using bone) came to help me but his dmg is lyk very lil lo, den of cuz i died and he ran away thats why im angry lolol.
I looked at his item..diao vanguard? ok laa im not sayin that bone cannot get vanguard but its my first time seeing bone wif vanguard..
To me, bone isnt those tanker material ma, bone should be humji de ba..always ww-ing arnd..but i didnt sae much laa..shadow is my fren ma 不可以让历史重演 lyk aura lidat :x hahas
Den another one was wif rain lo.
i played hamachi wif his frens, den first 2 rounds kept winning de of cuz 我的心情很好 but hor third round, he requested -ardm, the host said ok cos probably it's his bdae todae so jiu let him lo and so i oso played along but sad la 6 - 12 lolol.. i think i stopped at pudge ba..den throne jiu down le.
Anw it was 3v2 laa so even if we lost it isn't big deal after all ma,
but i think i kinda 耍脾气 den gave him cold shoulder..
Ps ah rain >< ur bdae i should've give face :l
To all frens: I play dota is liddat de but after the round while waitin for the long loading i will not be that pissed le laa..所以请大家多多包含. :] back to top?

拥有选择的自由是一件美好的事，而每一个选择都连带附上一定的代价。
Is this familiar to some of you guys? I found that at page 53 of the 凝思岛.
Well, i didnt kno the han yu ping ying for some of the words so i couldn't finish the sentence.
After reading this, i felt that i was truely happy when i got the chance to decide something even though the ending and consequences suck but still the very first feeling was very very very very 幸福 de.
I dun mind if time could rewind and keep replaying at the part when someone asked me "can u be my stead?" hahas..its damn sweet laa, it should replay until i shuang den let me face the consequences ma..:(
Anw..sad laa! aura is gone! He went Malaysia :( psk psk!~!
hahas..will miss u though and why u leave me when i finally got my contacts.. Boo :(
I'm having slpless night laa..there seems to be many things that are bothering me and i was counting sheeps last night to get asleep.
Horribbllleeeeee...
It didnt work thou..it works oni when i told myself no more 黑眼圈 and thats how i convince myself into slping. Lmao that's oso the real reason why im slping early when its hol! Very torturing :(
forcing urself to slp when u dont wanna slp..
And many many [thankyou] to joel for the song sunny days :D
Lurb it, lurb u, lurb everyone (lmaoo), good nite!
Its alr 12.14am -.-
Haiz, i had to wish rain a.k.a kelvin happy bdae thats why im slping late todae...anw happy bdae to xin yu too :D
cannot sms u ps :( back to top?

Weird.
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wtfff~~~
Last night, i wanted to sleep earlier and so i slept at arnd 12 LOL i dno if i should consider that early but anw, due to the fact that my lens are coming soon i hav to take good care of my eyes! I had to get rid of those dark circles and yea i've got the slp earlier.
I called vodka at arnd 10pm and he said that his phone had no batt, so he told me that he would call me when he gets home.
Den i only waited til 12am liddat lo, after reading half of the yisu book. (100+ pages to go).
But when i was slping, i think i woke up to answer a phone call, at abt 1am ba, and the guy asked me abt mcspicy and mcchicken den i blur blur ma so i said huh? Den i thot it was vodka so i didnt check whether it's him or not and continued to crap wif him, but after all the crapping he jus hang up, i thot that he would call bak but he didnt, anw it doesnt matter la..
Den the next dae i saw a msg, it was from vodka and he said that i didnt ans his call? ahh.. den i check my received calls and it shows that i got ans his call plus another unknown number, i guess that unknown number must be that mac guy a.k.a vodka ba and so i called vodka to check wif him but he said no it wasnt him and he said that i didnt ans his phone call BUT WTH i rmb last nite i did ans one phone call and it was the mac guy's one, there was someone beside that mac guy laughin away at our conversation lo..it was damn embarrassing laa~~~
But he kept denying that its him and so
TO THAT MAC GUY ITS NOT FUNNY WAKING SOMEONE UP SO LATE TO PLAY A PRANK.
And to vodka, i think i didnt ans la cos i dun rmb a shyt but dno why my phone oso as blur as me, it shows that i got ans leh. -.- back to top?